Thursday, February 11, 2010

Dear Karma

Dear Karma,

I don't know what I did to offend you, but whatever it is I'm sorry. I really wish you would just tell me so we can clear the air and move on. You really are a cruel little creature. You may have been amused to see me lying on a mountain unable to move having to have ski patrol come bundle me up in one of those sleds. And it was probably highly entertaining to watch me try and use crutches for the very first time in my life. But was it really necessary to cause a building evacuation on my first day back to work from my weekend tumble? I can barely walk on crutches, stairs are completely out of the question. But yet because you haven't gotten enough amusement from torturing me this week you thought that you would see if I could handle getting out of a building from the 3rd floor. Lucky for me the elevators still worked. So I get the message loud and clear Karma, you're pissed. All I'm asking is that you accept my apology for whatever it is that I did to make you mad and I'm begging you to please leave me alone for the rest of this week.

Sincerely,

Useless Dicta

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

Things I have Learned in the Last Week

1. It is not a good idea to go out and wreck one's knee skiing in order to get a couple of days off of work. As much fun as laying around on the couch all day sounds, not being able to walk, get in the bathtub, get food from the kitchen, or dress yourself is not fun and necessarily comes with the territory.

2. Crutches hurt. Literally every other muscle in my body is screaming in pain from having to use the blasted things.

3. Having to borrow a wheelchair from your grandma is just plain embarrassing.

4. Riding down the mountain in one of those sleds pulled by ski patrol is awful, bumpy, and slightly terrifying. Having to explain to ski patrol that you are not in fact a beginner but managed to have an epic wipeout on a beginner course while riding in said sled is humiliating.

5. Julie & Julia was a cute movie, but somehow it was missing something. Meryl Streep did a spot on Julia Child, but the overall plot of the movie just left me wanting something more.

6. Advil liquid gels are awesome.

7. Packing up 5 years worth of stuff is not fun, but it's absolutely impossible to do when one has a bum knee with orders to stay completely off of it for the rest of the week.

8. Popcorn popped on the stove with a little bit of olive oil and salt is pure heaven.

9. The Hangover is even funnier the 2nd and 3rd time around.

10. Knees apparently have several ligaments and right now my MCL is in poor shape, hopefully not torn but won't know until I see the ortho doc on Thurs.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Destination Lawyer

I have decided that the absolute worst part of my job has got to be waiting on jury verdicts.* I've never really been fond of waiting for anything. I especially don't like waiting for decisions when that decision is totally out of my control and in the hands of others. While my trial partner and I were passing the time waiting on our verdict we chatted about how law school seems like it happened years ago and how different it is to be a full time lawyer rather than a student who has an internship on the side of school. My trial partner asked me a question that I have been asked about a hundred times before: "if I had to do it all over again, would I still go to law school?" Every time I've been asked that question before the answer has always been a pretty resounding NO. For the first time today, I actually said "yes." Somehow sitting in the courtroom waiting on that verdict made me realize that for the most part I love my job. Sure there are days I don't want to get out of bed, people I don't necessarily enjoy working with, cases I hate, and stupid politics that make my job stressful. But what job doesn't have things you don't want to do, people you don't like, and politics that create ridiculous workplace drama?

In college one of my favorite professors frequently reminded me that life is not about the destination, but rather about the journey. If I had followed that mantra when I started law school I really don't think I would have made it to this destination that I am slowly falling in love with. I hated law school, especially the first year. I was frustrated that law school was such a different intellectual environment than undergrad. It was a very hard adjustment for me to make, and frankly I'm not sure that I ever did successfully make the transition. Towards the end of law school I did have the epiphany that I might actually miss it, but it was more a feeling that I would miss my friends who were all headed in various directions once graduation fell upon us, and not a feeling that I would actually miss law school itself. Sure enough there are days where I do miss being a law student. I miss the freedom of being able to have a 2 hour afternoon coffee get together with friends. I miss being able to roll out of bed, throw on a pair of comfy jeans and a hoodie and run out the door to class. Getting up early and making myself presentable for work every morning is kind of a drag in that regard, and lately my favorite pair of jeans have been ignored quite a lot. But ultimately at the end of the day I love the fact that I am a prosecutor. I love being a lawyer. I can't imagine doing anything else as a career at this point. What's crazy is that those are things that I never thought I'd be able to say when I finished my 1L year. For the first time in my young adult life I'm totally content with where I am and what I'm doing, and frankly I'm really not in any hurry to get to the next chapter.

Life may be about the journey, but it turns out law school was about the destination.

*The waiting was worth it, we ended up winning

Sunday, January 10, 2010

10 days and counting

10 days into the new year and I'm already exhausted. Turns out criminal court rooms are absolute mad houses the week following new years weekend, I'm actually not sure I had time to eat lunch any day last week. It was a completely insane week and yet I loved almost every minute of it. At the risk of jinxing everything I'll say that I'm actually starting to feel like I'm getting the hang of this whole lawyer thing, it's kind of awesome.

To top off an insane work week I spent the good portion of the day on Saturday furniture shopping. I treated myself to some new bedroom furniture and a new dining table set. I figure since I'm moving into my "all grown up" apartment next month that it's time to ditch my college kid furniture in favor of "grown up" furniture. In fact I managed to cross off just about everything on my "need to do before moving" list this weekend, except of course the minor little task of packing everything up. I hear that it's possible to hire people to come pack for you. That sounds so tempting, but it's likely a ridiculous waste of money for me and quite frankly I'm not really comfortable with the thought of other people packing up my stuff. I'm a lawyer, hence I'm a bit of a control freak. What I really need is a magic wand I can just wave to pack everything up instantaneously. *sigh* I really wish sometimes that I had gotten my Hogwarts letter so I wouldn't have had to go to law school . . .

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Y2K10

It seems odd to think that all that fuss about Y2K happened 10 years ago. Has it really been that long? Has a whole decade really gone by? I remember NYE '99 like it was yesterday, which is shocking considering I was practically an infant. I was 15, a sophomore in high school. At that point I hadn't even been behind the driver's seat of a car yet. That night I had a PJ party with a couple of my good high school friends (both of whom I haven't really talked to since high school graduation in '02). We did our nails, gossiped about boys, complained about school, and watched New Year's Rockin Eve on TV (I still remember the performance by No Doubt before Gwen Stefani was a solo artist). We talked about how far off graduation was and how we couldn't wait to finally be able to be college kids. We talked about what we wanted to be when we grew up and the places we wanted to see. We blasted the Spice Girls and Britney Spears to make our own little dance party in my parent's basement.

I started the 00s decade wanting to be a scientist. Genetics was fascinating and I wanted to do work that would hopefully lead to finding cures for incurable ailments. I went to college as a science major. I graduated college as a liberal arts student insanely interested in international relations and heading to law school to "save the world." I did manage to finish my science degree, but I found after just 1 semester of college that I didn't really love it enough to stick with it beyond undergrad. I started law school determined that I would never be a criminal lawyer. I graduated law school wanting nothing more than to be a criminal prosecutor. I started the decade as a naive high school kid and somehow I finished the decade as a lawyer with my dream job. Insane.

The last 10 years were full of plenty of times that I would rather forget, but there were many many more times that are moments that I hope I never forget, and for that I am truly lucky. The last year alone was a huge year full of lots of big moments and change. It occurred to me today that at this time of year I'm usually checking up on Fall semester grades. I haven't been out of school all that long and yet being in school seems like it happened a lifetime ago. When I think about it all I can't believe that graduating law school, passing the bar, and getting my first real job all happened within the span of just a year.

I have no idea what the next decade, or even just this next year will bring. That kind of unknown used to bother me, but now it actually excites me. If this next decade (what are we going to call it anyways?) is as jam packed as this last one then it sure is going to be an interesting journey.

"For last year's words belong to last year's language. And next year's words await another voice. And to make an end is to make a beginning." ~T.S. Eliot


*Hat tip to Lag Liv for reminding me that I too was soooo young 10 years ago :)